Two Memories

      I was inspired yesterday to write this blog. But it took me a bit to get here. I'm going to start with an old memory because the 2nd memory will be last because it will make such an impression, you will want to Praise GOD.

Yesterday I was talking to my 37yr old son. I was telling him about the time I was about 10 years old, riding my bike and my foot slipped off the peddle and the peddle came around and hit the back of my ankle which caused the front right side to be held down against the cement and it scrapped a terrible large hole in my skin. It was really bad. I still have the scar. But here I'm getting ahead of myself. So right after it happened, I looked down and saw it and ran 2 houses down to my grandparents' house. As soon as I got in and shut the door, I started screaming. Here came my grandmother from the kitchen and my grandfather came running in from the garage. They helped me to the bathroom and sat me up on the counter and put my foot in the sink. They inspected it and decided to take me to the Dr. You see, I had rocks imbedded in my flesh. It hurt so bad! And here is the thing that brought on the memory. While sitting there my grandfather said, "I wish it would have happened to me and not you!" Oh, WHAT??? let me tell you I thought he was crazy! I really did, I stopped for a minute to try to figure that one out, but really, I couldn't get past my unbelief. And it took me many years into my adulthood to realize he was NOT crazy! He just loved me that much! 

So, at the Dr's I had to sit patiently while the Dr picked those little rocks out of my wound. And I got to stay home for a couple weeks. My grandmother went to the school and got my work for me so I wouldn't fall behind. Believe me, my mother wouldn't have done that. It was a serious event. Is why I am still talking about it and now posting it here. I may have written about this one before, but I can't remember so I am posting it here.

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Now this memory is from yesterday! This is so wonderful I HAD to come and post it! Ya know, I almost said "I am going to write about this." out loud! But I didn't. So, I was walking into Family Dollar for cat food and right beside me there was 2 young black men. Now don't get your panties in an uproar because I described the color of their skin, because I feel like it is relevant here. I never felt threatened. The Lord IS with me! As we walked in the store and walking around the store, we passed by each other, them and I. And when I was checking out at the register, they were right behind me. I wasn't talking to anyone but then I heard this, "GOD Bless U." And of course, hearing this statement in public was a surprise to me, especially from a young black man! Now I don't have anything against black people, we all bleed red blood and I have had many black friends in my lifetime, and I know the color of a person's skin is not a reason to judge their soul. And I have seen many black people do well and... shoot, even my Dr is a young black woman. I LOVE her! However, I tend to mind my own business. But when I heard this young man say "GOD Bless U." I was so excited to hear it I spun around, and he saw the huge smile on my face! And I said loudly! "I don't know who you were talking to, but I am so HAPPY to hear you say that, thank you for saying it!" He smiled really big and said, "it was for whoever heard it!"  I said, "well this is awesome! You made my day!" and he said, "You made my day too!" "And GOD Bless YOU too!" I replied! And we all were smiling! There was at least 9 people who saw and heard the conversation. I think it touched everyone's heart! I can even remember this little, short girl leaning over to the side to see who was talking so loudly! Yes, I was that excited! 

I wonder if that young man was as HAPPY as I was. He sure seemed to be. He had a beautiful smile! 

I live in the same neighborhood as my grandparents did. My children went to the same schools that I did when I was living with my grandparents... and now my grandchildren are going to them. My youngest grandson is now going to my old Jr High school and my middle granddaughter will now be starting at my old High School. It's the Jr High school now. We never had racism in our schools. I think by the 70's that was pretty much the norm. I never knew racism in my life. There were some people who talked racist, but I never hung out with them. I never agreed with them.

OK, to wrap this one up I want to just say, we should never judge anyone by race or creed. It makes me think of how GOD supersedes all labels and colors and creeds. You never know when you will be entertaining an angel! And that is what I felt like when I saw that young man smile! Now there's an angel if ever I saw one!

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA

I AM A Christian

     I know, saying I am a Christian may not mean the same thing to others, who have seen so called Christians doing unchristian like things. But to real honest to GOD Christians, they know me!

Because a real Christian reads the Word of GOD for themselves. If you are not clear on something, just ask someone their opinion and think about it and the spirit will let you know in your heart if it's TRUTH. But I have learned even if you don't ask someone's opinion, GOD will pop the truth into your mind maybe 3 days later, or 7 days, even months or years, or maybe 1 minute. It's all up to you and the path that you choose to follow. There is nothing new under the sun. What we do is usually always a path that someone has walked before us. I say this because in life you can choose to do good or evil. Some actually choose to follow evil because of their lust and greed and arrogance. But I choose to follow Jesus, because he has the spirit of LOVE and PEACE and TRUTH.

You only need the spirit of GOD to understand its truth. You see some people say they are Christians, but they lack the spirit. They know NOT the word and only go by what they are told. GOD says beware of those who pretend to be a brother or sister in Christ. They will smile to your face and stab you in the back within a heartbeat. And you will know them by their actions. What are they doing with their life? It's hard to tell sometimes. There are so many fake people in the world today. This is why we can't judge people when we don't know their spirit. Only GOD can know their spirit. We just have to make an educated judgement by what we see without knowing their spirit. Sometimes as we grow in the Lord, we are able to see their spirit and we recognize them as a Child of GOD, or as a child of Satan. We can see what they do, and knowing what GOD tells us to do, we can either hang with them or politely excuse ourselves and leave. Once you leave, shake the vibes off and go on your way and don't look back.

Lies: I have always told the truth. Even as a child people would remark on the fact that I always told the truth. I got a reputation as being a truth teller. I really never gave it much thought as a child. But now in life as I see so many liars in the world. WOW... And I can tell you here that one of the gifts that GOD has blessed me with is I am a walking lie detector. It's hard to explain what comes over me when I detect a lie. Easier to say that when I hear truth, I remain happy and at peace. But lies disturb my soul. I do know a lot of liars, and I want to mention here that some of what people call 'white lies' are not important all, I think a white lie is a lie that hurts no one, so let's not get our bowels all in an uproar over them, let's concentrate on those lies that harm others. Now, most times if I detect a lie, it's really stupid and I don't say anything. Rarely will I confront them to speak the truth. But I have done this. Most times the truth would have been easier, but they lie anyway. None of my concern, I give it to GOD!

Violence: I have never been a violent person. My mother was violent. But thank GOD my grandparents stepped up and took us kids as much as they could. Mom would want us back when it was time to go to the welfare office. I can remember being around 3, I would wrap myself around my grandmothers' leg and I would scream when they had to pry my arms and legs off. Looking back, I am sure that was a hard time for my grandmother. My mother had married a man who was extremely violent to the point that I was physically abused also, pulling my hair and pushing me down, stripping me naked and being beat with a belt, leaving cuts and bruises we had to cover with long sleeves and long pants. Oh, wow a memory here... when someone called CPS, we were told to lie or else we would get beat worse. I was scared, I did lie... knowing it was a lie, but I was so scared. I told them I fell in the wood pile. I think maybe they might had thought I was lying, but they were OK with it. Now I am feeling bad that after I just told y'all I was never a liar. I guess I had repressed that memory until it just popped out to me. I am sorry. I will deal with it. GOD knows my truth and always helps me through it. So, I grew up to be a Peace maker, sometimes walking home from high school, I would stop a fight the Jr high kids had going on using calm words and logic. And when I was older, I would stop fights in the bar. 

Still on violence, I have never in my life seen so much in the world as today. I get this from various news on my phone. And I am not talking about big media, good for the weather and local news and some violence but let me tell you there are really people out there telling us things we will never see on the local news. I am not sure how to tell you how to find them, but just read everything you can and keep an eye out for them. They will not be full of propaganda to make you fear living in this world, but they will be objective and informative. So, today I am sad to report that 3 Muslims were murdered in my city yesterday. The Muslims are complaining that they can't go out without fear. First of all, there are many murders in the city that have nothing to do with religious hatred. However, being a Muslim knowing that Islam teaches them to hate Jews and Christians or Hindu or any other religion and to kill them! I should say 'US' because I am a Christian.  We know that Islam hates and murders all other religions; this is a truth.  And I also must add here that there are many Muslims who are here in America because we are a free people, free to be and do what we choose, and they too want to be free to choose. I get it! There are and have been many Muslims who help others try to change the Sharia and let people live like they want to live. But there are still old staunches who stand firm in the hate of others, so are they surprised when they teach this to us?? If that's the way it went down. Ok, here's another perspective, according to Sharia anyone who leaves the Muslim faith is to be killed. This sort of baffles my brain, and I think about how terrible it would be to live under a religion who murders their own. And that could have been the case, these 3 men murdered for leaving or speaking against Islam. Did you know, still today young girls are being murdered for the sin of fornication? Under Sharia gays are murdered for their sin right there in the street! Here in my city, we have an area where they can feel safe being gay. And we take good care of our young girls who make the mistake of unprotected sex. I do get it, fornication is not the best thing to do, even me, I put my first baby up for adoption, but you should see the amazing person she is today. I am so happy she found me 5 years ago. So, I understand that staying a virgin is honorable and the best way to go, but we shouldn't punish by death those who are weak to make a holy choice.

Hate: WOW I know you can see the hate in the world. It's crazy where the hell did that come from?? Could be Satan??  OK I can say here that the force against LOVE is hate. When you LOVE someone, you will not harm them in any way. When you love someone, you only want the best for them. GOD tells us as HIS children, to LOVE one another, do good to one another, help each other out! And I do actually know people in my life who are also good godly Christians, and we treat each other kindly! I have seen people turn from hate to find that LOVE suits us better! 

I look at the world and see that devil has done his job in spreading hate and violence and chaos and confusion and death. Oh, don't you know that he wants to kill off all who preach LOVE and give a good direction in life so you can live a better life? 

Can you see what lies and violence and hate do to our world?

It's hard to trust people, even when they say they are Christians, they are liars, but they hide it, funny how a liar or a cheater knows to hide their actions, which tells me they know they are wrong. And they deliberately do it anyway. These are not real Christians. Look, it's OK when a Christian gets mad, there is such a thing as righteous anger, but it's their actions while in that anger that matters. 

Give it to GOD... and take honest calm steps to fix the problem. GOD will help you always! 

GOD has never left me, not even when the lesbian wanted to kill me when I wrinkled my nose and said "Ewww" because she had her pants down under her butt. None of the other girls wore their pants like that. I mean I am a mom and grandmom; butts mean diapers and diapers mean poop. I can't help it. It's who I am! So, they as a group had come in my house. I was told not to let them in, but I had to be all accepting of who they were. My daughter was not a lesbian, but we had a friend who was. lol... I wish I could describe the look on her face, she was NOT laughing, but she was in my house I stood my ground. She and a few girls left, and I was told how lucky I was that she didn't beat my ass. Really? HAHAHA Not with GOD on my side! You see, with GOD on my side I am a winner!

And for you too! Be a true to GOD Christian and recognize the lies when you hear them, know the violence when you see it and reject the hate when you feel it. One day it will all be different. Even today you can find places and people who speak truth, stops violence and rejects the hate.

You too can be a winner!

Know that these 3 things have been in a power play since forever and ever. But I know that one day WE AS A PEOPLE will flip the script and LOVE and PEACE and TRUTH will be forever into the future respected and practiced in all places and with all people concerning all things

I promise the bad things will die out.

As we as a whole PEOPLE choose to let the good things in life be special to us. 

GOD! I can see it there and I want to live it!

GOD Bless US Everyone! 

Always and forever, AMEN

My Health Report

 I went to the Dr yesterday.

I found out that the pain that I have in my right back side and now in my left arm are related to the artheritis and osteoarthitis, which includes arthrosis, spondylosis, osteophytes, anterolisthesis, sclerosis, osteophytosis. Now I don't know exactly how all these words go together so forgive me if I messed up writing them, I got these words off my medical chart. I do understand that somewhere in there are holes in my bones and also bone spurs. When explaining to my grandkids I told them too bad they can't take the spurs and put them in the holes. HAHAHA... 

From what I understand some of this stuff is from overuse. It makes me think about when I was a waitress at a popular pizza restaurant. I could move around that place doing 5 things at one time! It was a popular saying from the crew, "There goes Nancy in her 5th gear again" HAHAHA it was so true. I remember when I remember when I had just turned 18, it was a Friday night and there was a problem with another restaurant, when no wait staff showed up. Of all the people (other waitstaff) the general manager thought of me and my 5th gear and called my boss and had a conversation about me going to the Galveston store to work for the night. When they asked me... well, me being a team player I agreed. The manager gave me a ride from Houston to Galveston! Oh yeah! It's true! I remember how I felt about it. I was happy they chose me! I worked 2 dining rooms that night that usually 2 or 3 girls handled. I remember the sweat dripping down my butt crack! HAHAHA. I made $105.00 that night. And in 1977 that was a lot of money! I remember how everyone was so happy and amazed that I did that. 

But you know, it was that 5th gear that did it!

Here's the thing. I'm going to have this pain for the rest of my life. I'm guessing my left arm pain is from those heavy trays I used to carry. I've had the back pain for about 3 years and the arm about 10 months. Dr said some people get it and some don't. So, I have already been on gabapentin and ibuprofen, so Dr just upped them. Gab morning and night now, not just at bedtime anymore. And the Ibu... she just limited me to 2400 in 24 hours. YES, I have a Lady Dr and I LOVE her!

It's amazing how much better I feel getting up and taking those pills and about 20 minutes later Oh WOW! I can walk! Before I went to the Dr there was a few times I had to use my sister's walker to get around the house. It was awful. 

But all in all, I am reminded of the story about when death showed up to a farmer's house, He came for the wife, but took the cow instead. There's more to it but I shortened it. You can probably do a web search and find that whole story, but here I am giving a short summery. 

And this is how I positively feel.

It could have been worse. They could have told me much worse news. You know the kind. You may know someone who was told to 'get their affairs in order'. 

I can tell you I am slowing down. And I am grateful that I'm alive and doing well. You know that I can take a couple pills and feel better even though it still hurts a little. And I thank GOD for that!

I don't have to think about the terrible things that could have been, I can just concentrate on what has been given me. I recently read that the Queen of England has a saying; "I never complain, and I never explain." Shes the Queen so she has people to explain things for her! Lucky Lady! But I am digging that first part about not complaining! GOD knows I could whine and complain all day... but even the Bible tells us to 'Do all things without murmuring and complaining.' So, I am living the life... Could be better, could be worse so I won't complain!

If you got this far in my personal post here, Thank U for reading, 

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA

And don't forget to Praise GOD, Thank U Jesus!

I Cry...

 It's been a while, I know. But the Lord is with me and I'm OK!

The news about the nation is devastating. I do cry a lot about how some parents kill their children the most. It's gotten so bad that I don't even watch that sort of news. I read the title and that's all I need to know. And I know that GOD takes special care of the souls who are lost to a parent killing them. Can you imagine the last few thoughts in a child's brain as they watch their mom or dad, or BOTH murder them? OK That's all I'm going to say on this matter right now.

And I cry when I also see the hate that some people are pressing, no matter what labels you have if you are hating, you are doing what the dark side wants. You are spreading hate, which is something we are told by GOD, NOT TO DO! Yet I see it every day. So sad about this.

When I see people hating each other I immediately go to GOD with it because 2 wrong acts do not make a right. And if you think so, that's so Old Testament! We are not in the Old Testament anymore. This is why I always say to always start reading with the New Testament. Get to know the man Jesus, you learn about him in Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. They are the men who knew Jesus the best. Yes, he was a real man, born through an Angel of GOD. Jesus was in fact the 'Son of GOD'. He carried within himself the souls of men. He taught us to LOVE one another! He taught us to CARE about each other. 

It's so bad, so sad that some only care about themselves.

I also see many liars. Too many. I mean there are liars lying to liars! Even when the truth would be easier! But people lie for a reason, mostly it's to hide something they have done. Or to hide something someone else has done. GOD is very strict on this issue. It is written in both the Old and New Testaments. It means a lot to GOD that we live in and for TRUTH! If someone is a liar, let's not HATE them... Let's teach them to do better. If they don't want to do better, well give it to GOD and just remember in all dealings with the person, know they are a liar. Personally, I would find it very hard to trust a liar after I discovered their lie.

Which brings me to my next thought. No matter what anyone says, literally there are only male and female (except for a few birth defects). GOD created man and woman FOR A PURPOSE! But since we took GOD out of our system, or I should say SOME people threw enough of a hissy fit to cause some people to remove GOD from schools and courts, ever since that moment people have fallen into a downward spiral. Going places where GOD HAS TOLD us NOT TO GO FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS. You see there has always been people who pretend to be the opposite sex. Men pretending to be women and women pretending to be men. It's has been a part of mankind since the beginning. But GOD says WE AS HIS PEOPLE do not do this. 

It is natural for a boy to be attracted to a girl. And it naturally promotes LIFE!

GOD IS the GOD of the LIVING! 

Now when our children are seeing men being pregnant or a woman winning a swim meet because he is really a man with more muscle mass and stamina. It is confusing our children. Some people are following lies of the devil and that is not what GOD says is best for us.

I am so grateful for the young folks who know that its best to follow TRUTH and JUSTICE. I mean, it's the American way! And it's GOD that sees to it that we know this to be a better way. When you follow GOD, you know how important TRUTH IS! And it's really funny to me when I see someone lying, yet they get soooo mad when they get lied to! I still can't figure that one out. So, I stay away from people who lie. Or I keep in mind they are probably lying to me at all times. 

This is why so many divorces are happening. How many divorces are based on lies? Nobody has time for that! Did you know that from the beginning GOD did not even have a thought for divorce? Because if you LOVE EACH OTHER there is no need for divorce. You would never lie or cheat. However, men and women have made it socially acceptable. Just the same reason we have so many homosexuals. It all boils down to the 'desires of the flesh'... why do people have illicit sex? They do it because it is a physical desire that GOD has warned us about. Is a huge reason GOD tells us to deny our self those guilty pleasures. Even for me... my guilty pleasure is food. But I work on that every day! 

When someone cheats it tells me 2 things. 1. Their love and loyalty are not to their spouse. and 2. it's the fleshly desires that come into play, those human desires can be so strong, but you know what? In the end you will be better off if you deny those fleshly desires like I deny my fleshly desire to pull into the donut shop every time I pass it. 

You see GOD is full of wisdom that people have known as TRUTH for many centuries.

And people are still playing like Grandma never knows best. 

Well, this Grandma is saying how it is. And the great thing about TRUTH is U will know it when you see it. Don't let people BS you with lies. If you keep GOD in your heart and mind, HE will show you that LOVE and TRUTH are the best way to go!

Can you imagine the life of someone who has to live with a grouchy person who is always cussing mad and blaming anything or anyone but themselves? And they whine and complain all day long. Oh wow... well I can say that is NOT the life GOD wants for us. GOD wants us to enjoy the fruits of LOVE and TRUTH and JOY and PEACE! This is a GREAT LIFE!

I can tell U truly; GODS way is the BEST way!

The Lord is with me, and I can see a time and place where everyone emulates Jesus and the world becomes a much better place! Don't follow the lies of hate, follow the LOVE in Truth and Peace.

Because we know that if the world respected TRUTH and LOVE above all else, there will be the new earth and a new heaven. The place that we leave to our children who will never know the horrors of war, because where there is LOVE there is no war!

Before I wrap it up here today, I want to say that crying is a part of my life. It used to not be that way. I have been on medicine that took the tears away. But it also took away all my emotions. In fact, I didn't care about anything. I think it hurt my kids the most. For several years I just didn't care. But today I am off all those meds. I am once again in touch with my own feelings. And I do care.

This is why I am trying to leave a good message here, that GOD cares and can help you have a BETTER LIFE! Some people are so lucky to be born into a GODLY family, others have to struggle to get there. Well struggle on... because the light at the end of the tunnel is Bright and Beautiful!

With all my LOVE and Care for U!

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA