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Monday, October 26, 2009

Ironic Justice

It is six AM, I havent been able to sleep, in fact I dont sleep much these days. Insomnia is rearing its ugly head throughout my nights. I do try. I read, I pray... I even try other ways of relaxation. But to no avail. I have a headache 90% of the time. I tried to eat, I made some eggs and a piece of toast and a glass of milk. As usual, I resort to using food as a means to help me sleep. I dont think that is very good for me. But it is what seems to help somewhat. I wish I could smoke a little marijuana. then I could relax and sleep like normal. I dont know why insomnia clings to me. My mind just wont settle down. It seems to always want to think.

So I suffer with it. Until someone with some sense can change the laws so I can smoke a little bit before bed, to help me sleep. Oh I do try the pills. But they are so horrible for me in the morning, I feel all puffy eyed and sluggish. Some dont even work for me at all. But if I take a double dose of Unisom, I can sleep about 4 hours.

I find it so hard to believe that they would rather me take chemical drugs that alter me even more than smoking some medicinal marijuana. Because I am honest here my friends... I dont do any other drugs. I dont even smoke cigarettes, I dont even drink alcohol. My only bad is I use food to help me calm down from anxiety... and if I fill up my stomach before bed, its easy to fall asleep. I think that is way worse, being overweight is not good for your health.

How can they take a healthy well cared for child out of a safe nurturing home just because of a little smoke, and leave others in very real abusive homes where they are molested and murdered.

Well... all my whining and complaining wont change things. But GOD knows, someone needs to do something.

So here is my thought for today... I have always put things in GODs hands... I never get specific about it because I know that GOD knows way better than I do about what needs to be done to bring about fair justice. And so I prayed to GOD that this evil liar, who possesses the devils soul, who called CPS and lied so horribly about us, would get her just due. I wanted her to feel the pain and loss that I felt with Joe gone. I was angry and reclusive, I wanted to see the justice.

This is not the first time I have prayed to GOD and asked HIM to handle things for me. And I bless GOD and thank HIM for his ironic justice that HE imparts on my behalf. For this is honest truth, I did ask GOD to fix it... exact justice for me so that I can know that all things work together for good, for those that believe. And I am telling you now, you will be shocked at what happened next. This evil liar who called and lied to CPS... got her just due. Her lover lesbian girlfriend, commited suicide! This is a fact. I never ask for and I never tell GOD what I want HIM to do. I just pray a certain prayer and then 'let go, let GOD!' And HE has never failed to bring me peace of mind. Ironic justice.

I did know the female who commited suicide. And I can tell you that she was very upset and wanted to end her relationship with the evil one, but felt there was no way out. So she took the only way she could, to escape the evil one who held her so close. This poor girl, knew and loved my grandson. She was there when he was a baby and even helped us with him. But because she later, ended up with this evil woman, we had to cut all ties with her. Who needs the drama? Who needs the lies and the stress? I felt bad that she was in pain. But she made her choice. Even tho she was mad about the evil one lying, she could only stay with her for she was afraid of her. She knew of the evil in her. This was evident in the fact that the evil one would cut this woman and suck her blood. I dont understand that. But it is truth.

So now, in pain and anguish... I know that this evil one can now know that she got back what she put out... one hundrend fold. Because Joe will come home to us and be protected by the BLOOD OF JESUS... but her lover will never come back.

Am I happy? Or glad about this? Certainly not. I do not take delight in other peoples sufferings. I cannot accept acts of violence as being good. But we have to know here... that one of GODs comandments is this... THOU SHALT NOT BEAR FALSE WITNESS AGAINST THY NEIGHBOR. That means you don't lie about people!

Maybe that is what's wrong with the world today. People have forgotten that GODS laws are for forever. No matter how much some would like to deny them... say they are old, out of date. They will be wrong because these laws live on just as much as GOD does.

And believe me folks...