I am writing this letter to you, because I was very angry at the CPS and after many angry letters and posts... someone said, the CPS is only following the law and that I should direct my anger to you... the DEA.
I want to invite any of you and all of you to my house to see the home that you tore down! I want you to see the space and place that YOU took the children from! I want you to know that you could probably find it hard to see a place more suited for kids, with the REAL LOVE of a Grandma that they can't resist!
I was at the hospital last night, July 14th... to bring my daughter and her daughter home. You see... CPS had placed my grand daughter in a place that was abusive... and she was so terribly abused, she ended up at Texas Children's Hospital.
When I saw her... she cried and shied away, she wouldn't come to me... my own granddaughter WAS AFRAID OF ME!
Let me start here... January of 2015, I was coming home with a friend who I had gone on vacation with. My daughter had had her baby girl while I was gone. And when we pulled up into the driveway... I saw a tall black woman all angry, demanding the removal of the boys... my daughter had called their dad... and he was there... my daughter crying... not just crying... but wailing! And the boys dad is jerking them away from their mother... they are crying and they see me and they scream... "NANNY NANNY NANNY" the pain that stuck me to the middle of my soul, was the most terrifying helpless moment of my life, something YOU wouldn't understand and I pray to GOD you never have to know the feeling of.
Their dad... who is a 2 time drug felon... started screaming at me in front of that CPS woman... saying things that he KNEW was not true... just to make me look bad so he could keep the boys, The courts had given my daughter custody and he was supposed to only have supervised visits, it was unlawful for them to go with him that day. (It would of been better for the state to take them... but that's not how it had to be... cause they didn't have anything, other than the small amount of THC on her). And he knew CPS would jump on his band wagon. Which they sure did... Now, he has kidnapped them and moved and wont answer the CPS phone calls.
I haven't seen them in 19 months??? Over a little POT???
You see, my daughter was a pot smoker...
Heck... I have smoked pot since 1972... oh not all the time... just sometimes.... and I have never been in trouble... I have NEVER harmed a child... and I have NEVER sat around smoking pot while the kids went hungry and unsupervised... I think this makes me the most angry... THEY THINK I put the pot ahead of the children... and they think they know that I am terrible evil demon pot smoker... they think that I cant do anything except smoke pot! I tried to tell them... but they wont listen. Where is the justice in that???
When CPS first came into my life, back in 1988, it was because a female neighbor who tried to get me drunk and have sex with me got mad at me when I wouldn't have sex with her. The next day 'someone' called CPS saying my son was in the street spraying himself with Raid! And that was a LIE... it was easy to get through that one... and then years later, when they came and asked me if I smoked POT, I told them the truth... "Yes, I have been smoking pot since 1972... and I don't mix it with the kids. And nothing was made of it. They could see that all the kids were well taken care of!
Now... today, I firmly truly believe that these black women who have come into my house the past few years have had an agenda... and that is to screw my family over for 400 years of black slavery... I felt that they hated me because I am white and they are making it more difficult because my family is white and the trend these days is blacks hating whites.
There was never any abuse... there was never any neglect... there was never a judge who demanded that the kids be removed... NO... it was just black women who came in like gestapo and scared my daughter into giving up her babies... now... if it was today... I have learned... I would of told them to get a warrant! I would of protected my grandchildren with my life!
This time with my daughter... I told her to stop smoking 'pot' because I knew they could use that against her... (which they never did to me, and yet, the laws are changing all over the nation)!
Yes, I told her to stop smoking and she said she did...
But of course, she was a defiant youth! I must say that she was a perfect child until she turned 12 and started going over to friends houses... one in particular where the parents pretended to be good and yet, they allowed the kids to drink alcohol and do drugs. I didn't know this... because they came in saying how they love to go to church and all... since then... I have learned some terrible things... and it makes me so angry that I was so deceived.
I will never forget walking up and down the street in the wee hours of the morning waiting for her to come home, to find out later that the so called PARENTS... would drive by and not let her out until I went inside. Grrrr... And wouldn't you know that later, they did get in trouble and CPS placed 2 of their boys in a home where they were both murdered... I think it had something to do with a fight over a video game between the boys and a family member.
Anyways... I have been though some hard times... but she was really doing better the past few years. She had testified for the state... and we were left in peace. She stopped drinking and she stopped doing all the man made chemical drugs... all she did was smoke some pot with a friend when the boys were sleeping. In fact it was a rare event for her. And we had talked about how important it was for her to quit smoking... which she said she did... but the baby came early... and even though she had passed her drug test, they dug into the babies first poop and found THC.
That's it! No abuse or neglect... nothing but that...
So here we sit... 19 months later...
Both of the boys have been kidnapped by their 2 time drug felon biological father... and the little girl... doesn't even know me as her loving Grandmother!!!
It has been a week and she still wont come to me!
I have 7 grand children... All of them come to me, except her.
My heart is truly broken!
I wake up with terrible anxiety worrying about the boys... I cry all the time for them. They were such a big part of my life! I want you to see the video of me singing with the boys before they were so wrongly ripped out of our lives. And now... oh... wow... I cant tell you how much hurt and pain I have been through. You could never know the sleepless nights, crying myself to sleep.
When my daughter was able to go see the boys, before their 2 time drug felon dad kidnapped them and moved away... she told me that the boys asked about me... and cried to their dad to come see me... but their dad is mean... That's the reason my daughter left him... he hit her and one day threw all her stuff out in the yard and even threw her down the stairs... and she was pregnant! And then he locked her out for hours, while she begged him to let her in. Do you blame her for leaving him???
Do you blame this blameless pot smoking granny for wanting to love and care for her daughter and her offspring? Can you see me? Can you see the real me???
So this man knows that if the boys come to see me, they are going to want to stay... so he tells them NO... and tells them they will never see me again?!? Grrrrr...
I will never in my life time ever believe that this man is a better person than I am, just because I have THC in my system. HA, he does too!!! What this means is... I never smoke around the kids... you can do all the things right all day... and then when the kids go to bed... I can go out in the back yard with a friend on Friday night and we smoke a joint and a month later I fail a drug test... I am a bad person because they find THC in my urine... has nothing to do with the actions of a good mother and grand mother... has every thing to do with the corrupt thinking of some people who love to hold power over someone else.
None of my grand children have ever seen me smoking... and they are 9 and 8 and 7 and 5 and so on... the 9 year old has never seen me smoking, but he knows I do and he doesn't judge me like that... he knows in his heart that I LOVE him more than anything.
And here's something interesting... I AM THE ONE WHO taught the boys to LOVE their DADDY when he came over and they were afraid of him... I hugged him and said I loved him as an example. Yes, you see, I knew it was important to share them with him... but his attitude of anger... and meanness is not something they would ever be fond of.
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE JUDGING ME CORRUPTLY!
I don't drink, I don't hang out in bars or night clubs, I don't do any drugs that you can find so easily on the street... Nooooo.... I love to stay home and take care of the home and family!
But no one sees that... no one cares...
Did you know that CPS gets paid by the case and are not salaried?? Did you know that the more cases CPS has open, the more money they get???
Did you know that CPS preys on poor people who cant afford a good honorable lawyer?
Did you know that with CPS rules... a simple casual pot smoker is treated the exact same as a hard core abusive heroin addict, who physically abuses their kids??? Ha! A CPS worker told me that!
Did you know that all someone has to do if they get mad at you is call in anonymously and they can lie all over the place... and are really taken seriously?
I even tried to tell them... hey, I am MotherPope... I LOVE THE CHILDREN...
They didn't care... they just hated me more, to prove to me that I am a NO body in their book.
And did you know that CPS got my daughter off the pot which they labeled a dirty drug test... enough to have all her kids taken away... but was given a clean slate for the Prozac and the Ambien and the Xanax and the codeine for pain that the Doctors put her on... Oh YES... they took her from being a totally functional pot smoker where she could at least get up and take care of business... to someone who couldn't even get out of the bed!!! She was drugged up beyond belief and yet... that was all good for CPS! Well, IT WASN'T GOOD FOR ME!!! I had to witness this destruction of my family! And I had to deal with my zombie daughter for almost a year, until I convinced her that all those man made chemical drugs were bad for her! She finally quit them on her own! She misses the pot but doesnt dare do it anymore for fear someone will judge her by her urine...
And if I was such a horrible bad person why was I able to spend all that time with my sons kids and my daughters oldest son? How can they say that I'm a bad person and take away the boys and my youngest grand daughter and yet allow that? Truth is, it didn't fit into their agenda... because my son would fight them tooth and nail with his very last dollar and they know they don't have a leg to stand on.
I also maxed out my credit card for a lawyer who didn't do anything, just told my daughter to do what CPS says and she stopped answering our calls. And then I gave up my savings I had put away to pay the taxes... but I gave it to a lawyer who made a few calls and told my daughter to do what CPS says... and then said 'the money was gone'... I live in poverty... I can't just pull money out of my... you know... I don't have a money tree... oh I used to... I had an inheritance... but then I lost over 100,000.00... from friends who... I thought I was helping... but then discovered they were not really friends when they ripped me off! So I feel like I have been screwed enough in this life...
Are you people even giving a care? Or has all the world gone crazy?
Something tells me you are so bored with my TRUTH...
Well... this is why you need to come to this house and see what you have done to destroy not only the house and the kids... but MY HEALTH! I know you don't care about my mental and physical health... because I am DYING inside!
And you know... the law that made pot illegal in the first place was also based on a LIE...
How do I know? Because back years ago, I found myself smoking a joint with a United States Marshall. And of course I am asking him, "HUH" ???
He told me that the crime that was committed back in 1903 that made pot illegal was NOT a crime of, 'oh he was so stoned he killed someone'... NO it was a crime of passion and adultery and racism... that was covered up and blamed on the innocent weed that was found in the hotel room that day! Back in 1903 it was unheard of, for a white politicians wife to have an affair with a black man. You know... they twisted the truth 30 years later in the movie Reefer Madness. But the thing is... it wasn't a white piano player... he was black... and the woman was not a popular prominent politicians wife... in the movie she was a young unmarried girl who was dancing all crazy and killed someone... OK... let me speak the truth here... There was once upon a time... a politician and his lovely wife... and after some years, she became bored... and so she started hanging out at the local piano bar... drinking her loneliness away... in time she fell in love with the black piano player there... and they started having an affair... as you would know soon enough people started talking and word got back to the politician... and one night when his friends told him where they were... he went to confront his wife... a fight ensued... and the black man killed the white man in self defense... and as we still see today... these things like racism and adultery are covered up...
So, the pot became the blame...
We now know that 'pot' is not as bad as we thought... it has spent so many years, talked about as a bad seed... and people are believing false words... oh isn't that an old story? Imagine that... PEOPLE believing LIES!
But... if we had been reading our Bibles... we would know that Genesis 1; 29 tells us that "GOD has given us every herb bearing seed that is upon all the face of the earth for our use..." And I can tell you from personal experience that 'pot' cures a lot of ills. My own doctor who is a long time respected Dr... would give me... and has given me Prozac and Xanax... and other drugs... because he knows I grew up in hell and he's been my Dr since 1972! Yes... its true... but I told him YIKES... after taking them I knew that I couldn't take them. I ended up in the bed all day not caring about anything, much less my kids! I need to be able to get up and do stuff... I can't be out of it like that!
For me... the pot works better than the man made chemicals... that the tax payers and insurance people have to pay for... and to speak the truth here... WE SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO GROW THIS BEAUTIFUL BENEFICIAL PLANT IN OUR GARDENS!
Who are you to tell me that GOD doesn't have it right, when I can see with my own eyes... that HE does... and that pot doesn't keep me in the bed all the time! I think that some people are working with some other people for greed and lust of money... because if growing a plant in our garden can help us... and can help us FREELY... we should be doing it! Especially knowing it is a natural help!
Stop standing behind the lies and confusion... I bet 100% of pot smoking people would agree... smoking pot is not as bad as the law says.,.. and I bet 100% of never before pot smokers are only saying NO SMOKING POT because of the law... not because they know it is a bad thing. They are only following people who train them to say such. Because I don't think pot is for everyone... some people don't want to smoke and that is good! I am glad they have such wonderful stress free lives! But then you have people like me, who have found great relief from smoking it!
Cannabis got a bum rap back there in that hotel room, in 1903. But you know... the truth was actually known by many people... and the truth has been passed down in stories like the one told to me.
Now WE AS A PEOPLE need to FIX IT!
Just like we have to fix our corrupt government... we must fix this law that was based on a lie!
I say... FREE THE WEED IT COMES FROM A SEED AND FULFILLS A NEED!
The way I feel is, I haven't lost yet... I am still alive... but if I died tomorrow... and I have not seen the boys in 19 months because of the corruption of many... then I will have lost. But for now... I am still alive and I am here... and I have written about this subject many times before... but whats different now is Grand child #7 is home with her mom. I know she is safe now... and it makes me so mad to know about her abuse and wonder how long it has been going on. How long has my baby grand daughter been suffering this awful abuse???
My daughter and I got into a fight this past Sunday... and it is YOUR fault, Dear DEA...
My daughter wanted me to watch the child while she went in the hot truck to do some errands... normally I would say 'Absolutely Yes'! But I had to tell her 'no' because the child still wont come to me. Until she clings to my neck like she clings to her mothers... it has to be no. I am not going to babysit a child who sees me as a stranger... and if things would of been different... she would know me... she would come to me and give me baby love. She sees her eldest brother and her cousins giving me love and hugs... but sadly as of today all she can do for me is turn away.
AND YOU DON'T THINK THIS HURTS ME???
Oh the anger... and the rage... all because of the corruption... and the lies...
Did you know that instead of ripping the kids away from the mother... CPS could of kept them together in a facility? Oh... but when we told them about it... they said, oh your almost through... your fixing to get your kids back. But is has been several months... Why???
I would guess that CPS doesn't know where the boys are! If my daughter can have her baby, those boys should be home! But their NOT... because CPS let a 2 time drug felon take them! And now... HELLO... did I say he kidnapped them???
I want to see my grands #4 and #5! This is Grandmother abuse!
And when CPS came and ripped crying children out of the arms of a crying mother... that was CHILD ABUSE... and even then it was intentional abuse on our family! There was only 1 black woman... no police, no warrant to remove the kids...
Ohhh... I can't put into words how angry I am... and HATE... Oh let me tell you I have to ask GOD to forgive me several times a day... I beg for HIS help... and HE only tells me to shhhh... its all apart of HIS plan to set things right...
One day I will see the boys again... and I will have all of my 7 grand children all together for Sunday dinners... and it will be wonderful... I have all faith in my GOD who loves me through the pain... and helps me find some bits of PEACE... that TRUTH will come out and all will be set right!
Unless WE as a PEOPLE are gonna allow lies and deception to be the norm...
I am waiting for you... my door is open... come over any time and see the LOVING HOME you tore apart! Come on... I bet'cha won't... I think you don't want to see the truth...
Maybe you can't handle the truth!!!
Lord GOD, allow this post to be read by someone who cares...
GOD Bless Us... Everyone!