Her Dream

      I know that it has been a while. I miss putting so much information here. I've been overwhelmed, to say the least. I just do the best I can and leave the rest to GOD!

I'm still working 9 shifts a week. 5 days and 4 nights. Day shifts are more hours than night shifts. I only work nights on Sundays, and I am totally off on Mondays. And Mondays are filled with its own needs. I don't have a housekeeper or a cook. I am the dishwasher. I did get a new washer/dryer set! That's going well! I did have them professionally installed. We didn't do that last time with the old washer, and it danced across the floor every time! When the dryer went out, I gave my 3-year-old washer to someone who needed it, and a guy came out and picked up the washer and took it to the lady's house and installed it right and there are no more problems there. I tell you, if you don't know how to do something, let someone who does know how do the installing, it's well worth it! And so, I had my new set professionally installed and I'm living the life being able to do the laundry like it was intended to be! 

I am grateful for a job that pays my bills, helping someone who really needs my help. The last lady I was a care provider for really didn't need my help. Over a period of 7 years, I saw a side of her that I didn't like. She lied to the Dr's; she lied to her family... well I didn't like it, but I ignored it. But when she lied to the police during an official investigation, well that's where I drew the line. I quit the job and THANK GOD I had another job within a week! I never missed a paycheck! And that's important to me, because my income is actually poverty level. And I have to pay the bills.

Now look, I'm getting off subject. I guess that's ok considering this is a journal of my thoughts and not an official story place. 

Getting to it tho... something happened that knocked me way down and it was hard to deal with it, and I want to tell you about it. And thank GOD I follow godly people who keep me going!

So, here it is... GOD has blessed me with gifts. One of them is the ability to interpret dreams. And I was talking with a lady who told me she had the strangest dream, and it really bothered her.  She doesn't know me spiritually and I didn't tell her, nor did I ask any questions. So, she started telling me about it... she was with her nephew at an elegant eating establishment, and it was one of those where you slide your tray and pick out or ask for whatever you want, as it was right in front of her...  going down the line, she was struggling with 2 big bags of jewelry and treasured items, which she accidently dropped, and they spilled out all over the floor... some other lady helped her pick them up, but they didn't get them all, she hastily went on choosing her food as she neared the end and had her tray packed with all her favorite foods! And then suddenly her tray fell and she lost all of her food and couldn't have a redo. She was extremely upset. And didn't know what to think! Well, the whole time she was talking, the dream opened up to me, and I knew exactly what it meant. I smiled because the meaning was so righteous! She looked at me and said "What"?  Well, I guess I should have said 'oh nothing' but I was feeling strong in the Lord and so I said, "Well its clear to me!" First off, the fact that she was with her nephew told me this was a spiritual event... so I simply said... "In your walk with GOD your jewelry and treasures and food mean nothing." 

"NO!" she screamed at me! Which shook me to the core as I am not used to people screaming 'no' to me. I couldn't believe that she got so upset! I backed up and changed the subject. 

She was supposed to be a Christian, she should have known the message was truth!

She laughs when I say, "Money isn't everything."  

I don't know, it made me feel like I just shouldn't say anything anymore.

But isn't that the wrong thing to do?

I can't let people tell me things that goes against GODs word. 

Well, it bothered me for a long while. 

I know I was neglecting coming here. 

And I appreciate y'all coming and reading!

Sometimes I feel like GOD is so disappointed in me, but then one of the people I follow will say something that clicks in my heart and I know that GOD knows that I am not a failure. GOD knows my weaknesses, and HE knows that I struggle. GOD still loves me even when I slip into a bit of depression. 

But see? I'm here and I have a lot of good things going on... I have a safe home, kids and grandkids who love me and they are my biggest motivator... I feel free to tell them the things that I have learned from GOD and they are doing well, living the American dream! 

Rest assured, GOD is taking good care of me and my family! And I know that one day I will be able to live in peace and love, and life will be a little better!

I am so glad to get this one out of my head! We can move on!

I wish help and happiness to you all!

Praise GOD Thank U Jesus for all blessings!

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA