Overwhelming Thoughts

 I have been overwhelmed with emotion. 

I have been sick since 11-12. It was like a serious head cold. My granddaughter went to the Dr., and they tested for covid, flu, pneumonia. It was nothing like that. I have had my covid flu and pneumonia shots. I had fever and laid in the bed as long as I could. Everyone got sick except my daughter in law and one of my granddaughters. Still, I have this terrible cough. But I am thankful I didn't die.

We had Dee's brother here about 3 days. He is in such bad shape the Dr's and nurses don't know why he is still alive. So, he sat on the couch, had a bottle to pee in and wanted food but couldn't eat much. He's on oxygen it was blowing max and he still had trouble breathing. I will never understand why he was smoking cigarettes. Hes had heart attacks, several stints put in, he's fought cancer and has diabetes. His feet are purple. And much more. We had to call the ambulance for him last night.

I've never seen anyone who has managed to pull this off. 

Some of y'all know that I have often felt like someone whom GOD puts with people who are dying. I have not enjoyed this, but I always help them as best I could. I really just put all things in GODS hands. I have no control of this, I just go with the flow.

Dee said something to me that floored me. She was asking me if I would "keep her brothers' oxygen thingie charged, OR is that too much to ask..." I was shocked, I didn't understand. I am always a team player and I felt insulted. I dropped what I had in my hand and went to my room. I couldn't say a word. Dee and I have been friends over 50 years. After a while of prayer and meditation I realized she was not in a very good mood, her brother being here like he was. He just didn't want to be in the hospital. I was OK with it because I figured this was a good place for him to be. 

I did manage to gather myself together and get back to what I was doing, which was emptying the garbage can. This is what I do, constantly helping others. I mean it's what GOD wants me to do. 

Not everyone is like this. 

If I could have one wish for society, it would be to have all people loving and caring about others. So many, too many people are self-centered thinking the world revolves around them, hurting others for self-gain.  But also, I am seeing in the world, good people doing GODLY things with no more thought than, 'it has to be done, and I'm going to do it' ...

I don't usually name names here, but I feel like I must point out one person out of many others who is young and smart and standing up for GOD! His name is Ben Shapiro, and he is emulating Jesus! I know he is Jewish but still he has that spirit within him that shouts Jesus! The man! I mean just WOW! 

I know that when we all emulate Jesus, it will be then that we will see the second coming of Jesus! I don't believe he will come floating out of the sky, I believe he will be coming in the SPIRIT OF GOD that will inhabit the hearts and minds of ALL the people! 

Everyone will be acting like Jesus! I can see it happening! 

The devil which is responsible for all that is wrong in the world, lies, violence, death and destruction, is trying to destroy US as GODS PEOPLE! 

I mean evil in people has been rearing its ugly head long enough. It's time we stand up for what is good and right in the world, Truth, Peace, Life, Love, building things instead of destroying things. 

One of the most horrible of things is lies. Remember 'Don't lie' is one of the 10 commandments. If you go by them, and as we know that where there is LOVE for one another, we don't lie to each other! 

But the fact that a man can 'feel' like a woman, dress and act like a woman... we are supposed to call the man a woman? Uh NO. The TRUTH being, he is a man. I read a comment today someone had said they were talking to a psychologist who said in the mental institutions they don't feed into the delusions of their patients. If a man says he's a woman, a Dr' calmly and politely tells them 'No, you're a man,' 

I am so grateful that smart people know to keep truth in play. 

It's wrong to allow someone to believe a lie. 

I was so upset when I saw Ben Shapiro talking in a group with that Jenner 'uh' person who is a man who wants us to call him a woman, and this other real woman says "it's not polite to call 'her' a man. Call her by her proper pronoun."  Did she ever see how ridiculous that sounds? And then the old Bruce Jenner said to Ben, "You better stop that, or you'll be going home in an ambulance." Jenner couldn't stand hearing the TRUTH. 

I believe this is the devil trying to confuse our children. 

It's wrong and we shouldn't be feeding into other people's delusions. It is our job to point out truth. And that is why Ben Shapiro will succeed in life because he is not going to stoop to their level.

I struggle here because I have PTSD and anxiety issues. From all that psychological warfare I suffered through. It's hard not to react to other people's actions. I used to take meds for it, but that stopped when I stopped going to clinic because of covid. So, my days are carefully planned so as not to have stress. But I do. And GOD gets me through it. Always.

I feel like it would be a waste of time to hibernate in my house away from other people. That just doesn't seem like the right thing to do. We aren't supposed to hid our candle under the table.

It helps to come here and get things off my mind, and I know you're reading! And I thank GOD for that! I feel like I have a story to tell. It's a sad story but GOD has given me blessings that I think about every day. 

Yesterday was Thanksgiving. I got paid but it's going to take every dollar to pay the bills. I had no money for extras. I made Great Northern beans, which I LOVE. But then my brother-in-law who is the widower of my sister, he came in with a ham and a turkey! And some dressing his uncle had made and he cooked! My daughter in law showed up with yams, green bean casserole and a yummy fruit salad that my granddaughter had made. And there I sat. I had already made plates for Dee's brother and Mr. B., and I then got me a plate and sat down with all these people that I LOVE... And I actually cried tears of joy realizing that here I had nothing but looking around me I knew I had everything!

You see I stopped going to Thanksgiving in my 30's because of family cattiness and drama. Soon my grandfather started taking my grandmother out for Thanksgiving. It was a heavy load on my grandmother's shoulders. And I was glad to see her so pampered by my grandfather. He knew there was tension in the house. It had been years since I had a day like it was yesterday. 

Love and peace radiated the house. 

I am not one to keep my Thanks to GOD to one day a year. I Thank GOD daily! Sometimes several times a day. I am actually in constant communication with GOD!  HAHAHA

I believe that is what we do as Christians. We have a hotline to GOD! 

I feel better getting this all out. There's more but I think I have said enough for today.

I am exhausted. 

Thanking GOD for all blessings! And praying for Dee's brother.

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA