My New Life

      They say that when GOD closes a door, HE opens a window!

And I am here to let you know that WOW this change is good!

I went from a slave 24/7 to 6-hour day 5 days a week and off 2 days! 

Like normal! 

I love that because it gives me time to do what I want and need to do!

Most important is the fact that I got the demons out of my house! I am sure you have heard that you must get the demons out before GOD can bless you. GOD can't be around where demons live. It's true, I couldn't even be myself. You see I wake up naturally in a good mood, I am cheerful and feel pretty good! But it was like whenever I was in a good mood, Dee would always want to bring me down. Well, I blame the demons she held onto. Or the 6 psych pills she was taking. But if I woke up and pretended to be mad and upset, she wouldn't have to drag me down, so she would leave me alone.

For me I don't want to live like that! I was happy to fight the demons because she lived in my house. She's been my friend for over 50 years, and I was willing to do that. But now I am so happy to have no more demons in the house to fight or have them picking on me and then laughing about it. 

A lot of innocent women suffer demons brought on by people close to them. A husband or kid or even a parent. It makes us angry and bitter, and GOD doesn't want us to have to suffer such. It has never been in GODS plan to have us suffer. It has always been evil entities who do such things.

The lady I work for now loves Jesus and she has a roommate who loves Jesus! Can you just imagine how much better my life is!?! We are all happy! I am happy to be able to have a job where it is a pleasure to go to work! My patient and her roommate are both happy to have me there always in a good mood! Roommate has terrible issue with her hands, and I ease that burden for her by taking care of my patient. And something that makes me happy is that the roommate said it feels like she has known me all her life! I tell you, that it is the Jesus spirit within me, is what she has known for a long time! 

But it made me so happy to hear it!

Speaking of something that I loved to hear; it is something that I haven't told the people in my real life. But this on here is actually like a journal, so altho I won't say it in my real life I will post it here for posterity's sake.  GOD is reminding me that, that is what HE loves... I don't have to go around telling people these things to make me feel precious. And I wouldn't anyway. 

You'll see why, 

I was at my Dr's office; my PCP... and she's leaving to go to work closer to her home. And you know I am actually happy she will have a better time of it working closer to home as she has 2 very young children. But y'all know I have said how much I love my Dr and I will greatly miss her. Well, we were chatting about things and when it was time for her to leave the room, she gave me a hug and I heard her say, "If only everyone could be like Nancy." Almost like she was speaking out loud a private thought. It touched my heart because it told me that she also had good thoughts about me! I remember as a child being compared by the older folks, they were telling my older sister to be more like me, I remember how happy I was to be a good kid, but also how it made me feel bad because I felt like it hurt my sisters' feelings. So, when I hear these things, it makes me happy that people like me. I have been beat down so much in my life it's nice to hear something that lifts my spirit, something that makes me know that it's nice to hear something nice said about me. Especially something so profound that it touches my heart so deeply and leaves something beautiful there.

Ohhh, it's not about me thinking how great I am... it's more that I have suffered so much depression my whole life. Why? Because my mother loved herself more than she loved us kids and she was cruel, we were stripped naked and beat till we would bleed. She was mentally and emotionally abusive also. So therefore, I married men who were abusive, because it was what I knew. I have had years of therapy. 

Some people say it was amazing that I didn't learn to be abusive. 

My grandparents tried to get me as often as they could. They were good people. Went to church every Sunday and treated me like a kid should be treated. They were who taught me to do better. My grandmother was extremely upset that my mother, her only child, could be so mean. 

Well, here I am, after suffering almost my whole life, finally I can live a life that is good! 

I love my job, and I can also come home to a peaceful place. 

My daughter and her kids travel about 40 minutes to get here, and my son and his family are 4 houses down and we are all here and in a good mood, and we all get along and there is the feeling of peace and joy among us! No body fighting or being mean. It's like a normal family. 

Look how long it has taken me to get normal! 

Oh, I know that sounds silly, but I never had normal and now I do! And I am so happy!

I remember hearing 'sometimes it takes 200 years to stop a bad family habit'!

And look see! I have done it in my own lifetime. My grandkids will never know the pain of abuse from someone who was supposed to love them!

I feel well and happy!

Praise GOD Thank U Jesus!

GOD Bless US Everyone! IJCNA