I am here because...

I was so happy to stumble across this site. I looked it all over and thought how cool it would be to have a journal type posting online so that if the puter crashes I will still have the info online. And not to mention it might be fun to see how people react to some of the things I may say.

I was thinking earlier today how laughable life is. Not to long ago when I allowed a 3 and a 4 year old to stay here at my house 24/7 while their parents were renovating their house... after 30 days of that... HA! I was just about to go over the edge of my sanity. I thought... I really have to stop doing this. And last night, I counted 11 bodies snoozing around the house. Just when ya thought it was going to get better... lol... Ohh yes... they were in all the beds, on the couch and even 3 on the floor... whew... and during the day... WOW... can you imagine all the people walking around... in and out of the house. I try to ask them to go outside to smoke, which most of them do... I guess GOD just wants me to take care of ALL who need it the most. I know it makes me crazy but there is a saying that came off of an old Amy Grant album... you know back when there were vinyl albums? hahaha... it was before she got popular with pop. In one of the songs it says... "I only have to do what I can find." Sorta like, 'life isnt hard... just do what is put before ya' to do. That phrase stuck in my head and I have used it many times when I would find something in front of me to do. Like taking care of someone while they are getting back on their feet. Someone who is hungry or just looking for someone to lean on a little bit. I am glad to think that even tho I heavy sigh and dream of some 'peace and quiet' and a 100% totally clean house. I still can count my blessings. One day I will have that quiet house with no dirty dishes in the sink. They will be grown and gone. It will be quiet. Until I start to SING! lol...

I do count my blessings everyday, I really do have 2 good kids. Some people are having serious problems with their kids. I dont really know what or how I did it. I am a single mom doing the best I can. But if I was to try to explain it... what makes me different is I dont name call my kids. I dont get all radical about certain issues... I pick my battles... some things are just NOT worth getting upset about. They are gonna do what they want and we are just going to have to deal with it. I also have always respected my kids. Treated them like they were real people... never talked down to them and always listened to what they were saying. I have always wanted them to be independant thinkers and self reliant so I have forced them to make their own decisions and do their own thing. I support them as well as I can. I have been known to errr.... 'come unglued' hahaha and they know how far to push me. Cause when it comes right down to it... I AM the MOM. *smile* They know that they are loved, they know they are safe and secure.

Yes, today has been a good productive day. I am glad I passed by this way. I am glad that I can come here and post my thoughts. Sorta like writting a letter to a special friend... and the world is my special friend. What a silly, scarey, incredibly sweet thought. Well... at least I mean well.

*smile*

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